Don't worry, everyone. I'm back and better than ever! I kind of hit a breaking point last week when we were on exchanges actually. I was still in that constant overwhelmed state and we went on exchanges...I was not ready for it! We're supposed to be there for the sisters when they need someone to talk to, but I wasn't in the place to be someone else's rock. We had a long talk on the way home, and then after planning she took a shower. While she was in the shower I just knelt down and let out all of my assorted emotions to God. I asked Him for support because I know I can't help these sisters...or the Clark YSA ward...or anyone on my own. I asked Him for strength because I've been starting to find out how weak I am. Anyways I had a long and emotional conversation with Him and I've felt AMAZING ever since! I immediately felt calm and I had no doubt that I can rely on Him for anything. So I feel like I'm finally 100% back in my body!
I found this picture of Elder Lambert and the STLs the other day.
He is just so loved by everyone he has ever met,
and I'm sure he's still making people smile on the other side.
We love you, Elder Lambert!
We love you, Elder Lambert!
It was B's birthday! She loves funfetti cake and the color purple, so this is what I made for her.
She is the sweetest human. I just love this girl!
Here's a scripture that explains my feelings right now: Alma 26:35-36.
35 Now have we not reason to rejoice? Yeah, I say unto you, there never were men that had so great reason to rejoice as we, since the world began; yea, and my joy is carried away, even unto boasting in my God; for he has all power, all wisdom, and all understanding; he comprehendeth all things, and he is a merciful Being, even unto salvation, to those who will repent and believe on his name.
36 Now if this is boasting, even so will I boast; for this is my life and my light, my joy and my salvation, and my redemption from everlasting wo. Yea, blessed is the name of my God, who has been mindful of this people, who are a branch of the tree of Israel, and has been lost from its body in a strange land; yea, I say, blessed be the name of my God, who has been mindful of us, wanderers in a strange land.
...hello! We should be so much happier than we are because we have a Heavenly Father who loves us and is always thinking of us! That's what my week-ago self needed to hear.
Oh also we had a great lesson with N! Did I ever tell you about her? She hasn't been the best at replying to texts or calls, so we've stopped by twice and both times she's said it's right after she prays for help. Anyway we had a great lesson with her just answering questions she's had from hearing random things about the Church. There is such a drastic difference from when people ask the same questions but have different motives...I don't think that sentence was in English, but I hope it makes sense to people. Lol sorry I'm always in a hurry when I email. But she was genuinely asking these deep questions because she wanted to know the truth and we loved it, but sometimes people ask the same questions with different motives and it just goes nowhere. So we try to end the conversation on a good note and leave.
Also S came to church! She left after sacrament meeting, but it was still great and she said she feels so peaceful there!
Have a wonderful 4th of July! We're going to have a BBQ for lunch with a bunch of missionaries, then play kickball, then have another BBQ for dinner with the YSA ward! I love America...and hot dogs...and playing outside!
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